The way I cope with aggression is to write up stories of killing the person who upset me. I always get a "giddy" feeling when I write them. They are also extremely vivid. Is this weird?

im 14. in 9th grade i like reading and im kinda shy. im a teen mom of twin girls. and ive had problem's with mental and emotion stability which lead to bipolar disorder and depression. im trying to find help. i love writing stories and hope to publish them someday.