This is a tough situation you are in. 😔
There is A LOT in your question. First of all, the first few weeks/months of anything new is tough till you catch on to what's going on. Then there is the fact that sometimes it's the thrill of the challenge/chase. How bad did you really want to be a doctor? Did you take into consideration that becoming a doctor takes every bit of your time and energy for years on end? Is the dream of wearing that white coat bigger then the sadness of missing your home? Can you be a doctor in your own home town? This is just a few thoughts I had......